Tax season, yay! Said no business owner like myself. I don’t know about you, but I personally have never been excited about doing my taxes ever since being self-employed. I swear I feel so blessed not to have to use math in my career as a barber, but when it comes to tax season, numbers are all I see as I carefully add up all expenses and subtract from my income until I finally find out how much I will owe back, or in this case for 2020, how much I didn’t make compared to previous years.
I don’t know about your situation or if and what kind of business you run, but I can guess that, you too, might have come across the same situation as I did. With the chaos of the year 2020 and a pandemic still going on, I know many businesses have had to make changes or even have had to close down indefinitely.
Whatever the case may be, business owner or not, I know this pandemic has challenged a lot of us financially and even awakened us to see how and where we spend our money.
I’ve always loved shopping and owning cute things like purses, shoes, jewelry and I especially love eating out with friends or going on spontaneous road trips. Can you relate? Something about getting dolled up and experiencing moments with friends simply bring me so much joy as we create memories that last a lifetime.
But when there’s a pandemic and not much to do or even the option to wear all your cute clothes, it changes things.
I’ve found myself decluttering my walk-in closet recently and realize how I still have so much stuff that I didn’t get to wear this last year and I honestly missed it.
As I finished up filing my taxes just recently it didn’t take me by surprise that my business took a loss. I had already been feeling the stress for months about how I felt every week as I was barely making ends-meet, but something about seeing it all on paper made it more real.
But you know what? I somehow didn’t feel as upset about it, at least, not for too long.
Just because my business didn’t make more money, doesn’t mean that it’s failing. My business is still running, I still enjoy it, and I still have amazing clients coming in that I can offer a great service to and enjoy conversations with.
My career for the past few years has become to me more of a ministry and a place to grow in every way possible. Most importantly, it has been a place where I’ve seen God do miracles through conversations spoken, prayers prayed, tears shed, and where God has been constantly teaching me to trust in His provision for me in every way.
Although the numbers on my tax forms show negative, I see much more of a gain in what truly matters most. Faith strengthened, lives changed, and memories made for a lifetime.
I’d be lying to you if I told you I never cried out of stress and worry about my finances. Ive cried A LOT! But I’ve also learned to pray even more through this season.
So, whatever you may be going through in this season, know that your prayers are being heard, you’re not failing in life, and you do have a God who cares about all of your needs. And sometimes what we thought we needed, like money, could have been more of a need for trust in God’s provision for us. We could go on and on about asking God for more money or more work, but instead, He gives us just enough for our physical needs to be met and much more of our need to trust and rely more fully on Him…
Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?~Matthew 6:26
Sometimes we get so caught up with making more money or the feeling that we don’t have enough, but we forget that all things come from our Heavenly Father. He is our provider and knows exactly what we need and when we need it. He is never too early or too late. Everything is accomplished in His perfect timing for us. Yet, in a world with hundreds of fast food options, same day shipping and dating apps we can get so caught up with instant gratification that we want it all and we want it now. Sometimes, we simply need to learn to slow down, enjoy what we do already have while we patiently work towards what we plan to have later on one- step- at- a- time…
When God is on our side we will always be wining 🙂
Trust God and Do Good… ❤️