Kingdom Beauty Design

Hello friends!

Do you ever feel like something or someone is missing in your life? Or, even when you received what you were seeking somehow didn’t seem to give you that satisfaction, at least not for long term?

I can tell you many stories of when i’ve longed for something so much and once I got it I still felt empty or even lonely. Going back into my teenage years I can honestly remember how I wanted a boyfriend so bad. Being an observer I remember always sort of envying all the girls who would have their boyfriends walk them to their class. I think I even pretended at some point to be annoyed by them because some of them seemed to be so inseparable.

It’s not like I never had a boyfriend, in fact, I somehow was always dating or talking to someone, but they were always older than I was. I never got to experience having a boyfriend walk me through the hallways nor have a rose delivered to my classroom on Valentines Day.

You know what’s funny though? Even though I had boyfriends outside of high school I don’t think I ever felt satisfied. Yeah, I enjoyed the company or feeling of being wanted, but that’s about it. I still felt unfulfilled.

Fast forward to my senior year in high school, I was dating someone whom was nine years older that I was. Close to about a year into our relationship, I felt like things were getting more serious due to the fact that my parents welcomed him into our home more than they ever did to the other guys they sort of knew about. Anyway, majority of my friends were already having sex and you could see where this is going.

Yup, I gave “it” up to him. And guess what? It was NOTHING like I had imagined it would be. I’ll spare you the details or possibly share in a future book.

I didn’t know what to think when I lost my virginity to the one whom would later become my husband, (and now ex-husband for those who are new to my blog). I thought I would feel more loved or desired, but strangely the opposite happened. I felt somewhat used, dirty, empty, and ashamed. Loosing my virginity to this man was a huge factor in my decision to marry at eighteen, but I felt like I had no other choice, I felt like no one would ever want me because I was touched already…

My friend, man or woman, we both are equally affected emotionally, physically, and spiritually by our actions when we choose to unite our bodies with people. We both long to be loved and respected, but choosing to satisfy our sexual desires with multiple people has long term consequences such as in future marriage, trust issues, and even how kids make their own choices at a young age.

There’s a story in the Bible about a samaritan woman at the well in the book of John chapter 4 where Jesus comes up to this woman asking for a drink. She replies, “How is it that you, a Jew, ask for a drink from me, a woman of Samaria?” John 4:9 Then Jesus answered her,

“If you knew the gift of  God, and who it is that is saying to you, “give me a drink,” you would have asked Him, and He would have given you living water.” ~John 4:10

She didn’t understand what He meant at that moment nor whom was standing in front of her, which can be often how we may respond to God as well. But Jesus explains to her that,

“but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up eternal life.”  ~John 4:14

She doesn’t quite understand Him yet, but Jesus then asks her for her husband and she explains how she has no husband. Jesus knew she was being honest, and said, “You’re right in saying, ‘I have no husband; for you have had five husbands, and the one you now have is not your husband.” John 4;17-18. Ya’ll, who needs Netflix when there’s so much drama in the Bible, LOL.  😉  I do encourage you to read this story of this woman. She then understand that the man standing in front of her was the promised Messiah Himself so then she goes and tells of her testimony to all people and more believed in Him, Jesus.

I’ll never forget the day I was baptized, June of 2017, my pastor mentioned to me how my testimony reminded him of this woman. I agreed, and since then, I seem to feel compassion for her, and for myself. I feel for all those men and woman whom think they are damaged goods because they’ve had multiple sex partners. But let me remind you, or if you’re hearing this for the first time, you are worthy of love and being restored. Your past mistakes don’t define you. You can start again, though accepting Jesus as your savior. He can and will restore you. Remember, He never rejects those whom come to Him, John 6:37.

God is our living water. Only in Him we can find eternal peace, love, joy and true happiness.

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