Today I experienced something I hadn’t felt in a long while. For the most part I’m a pretty relaxed joyful person. But as I was cooking today, which by the way is very therapeutic for me, I suddenly felt sadness come upon me. Why? I don’t know!!! It was definitely uninvited sadness. But what I realized was that instead of feeding into this uninvited feeling, I prayed in my mind asking God to search my heart and reveal to me why I had suddenly felt saddened.
I continued cooking and focusing on what I was doing, but I realized that all the noise around the house wasn’t helping me have complete peace. After an hour or so, I decided to just stop everything I was doing and I took my dogs for a walk.
Finally! Complete silence, the breeze of fresh air, and no interruption.
“Be still and know that I am God”
I walked, I prayed out loud and asked God again to search my heart and reveal to me why I had felt that way. I thanked Him for all the things He has blessed me with and I praised Him for the abundance of wisdom He’s shown me in such a little amount of time of being a true follower of Christ. I admired the weather, the beautiful green colors of what’s left of the summer, and watched a beautiful butterfly in bright orange with black lines as it seemed to follow my dogs and I. What a beautiful moment!
God reminded me again how much I need Him and Him alone to find true peace! It was almost as if this feeling of sadness was meant to happen for me to be still and realize again and again that my peace and joy ultimately comes from my Lord. Yes, he shows us love and peace through friends and loved ones as we all are used as vessels by Him, but God is where we regain ultimate peace. WOW, thank you Lord…
So, here I remain, beautifully broken and feeling the intimate adoration that God alone can give me again and again, day by day.
Trust God, and Do Good 🙂
Thank you to my dear friend whom shared with me a new level of intimate relationship with God through beautiful songs…