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“Living in the past is like living in a jail cell with the gate wide open.”

I cannot believe how long I lived without knowing the truth. I was always drawn to self-help books and motivational speakers and i’d get so excited about learning and trying all these new ways to have a happier life. In fact, one of my favorite books was “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrene, and I was so amazed by how simple it seemed to simply think positive  and positive things will happen to you. It was AMAZING! At least while it lasted. Don’t get me wrong, I still love self-help books and motivational speakers, but the real secret that has given me long lasting happiness, joy, and peace has been the Word of God.

I’m currently 26 years old and I honestly feel like I’ve lived double my age already due to my experiences. I won’t share every event on this post, but just to give you an idea imagine being 26 and already struggled through things like; depression, anxiety, sexual abuse, physical and mental abuse, divorce, suicidal attempt etc… And maybe you have gone through some of these things too, even if only one,  pain is pain and no one deserves it at any age.

And you know what’s crazy? Just when you think you walk away from people that have hurt you or that you’ve overcome these traumas, our minds tend to bring us back to those times making you feel as if it had just happened. It’s almost as if you cut yourself with a knife and right when you feel it’s  almost healed, a simple little touch makes the wound feel fresh again.

This is exactly how I had been living my life. I’d try many techniques to feel happy only to find out that it would never last me long. I honestly didn’t know any better and I’m still learning that I have many wounds to be healed that I had no idea existed!

This past February I felt God speak to me clearly to leave a relationship. I didn’t obey Him right away, but I continued to ask Him if that’s what he wanted me to do. I continued to study His word and not long after,  I knew that it really was what I had to do. So I did. I ended a relationship with the person I was engaged to be married with. Yes, it hurt, but it felt right. That decision gave me immense peace knowing that I had obeyed God and that my strength came from Him alone. I would have never been able to do this in the past especially because I always thought I needed a spouse in order to be happy.

“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” ~John 15:5

It’s not easy changing old habits nor is it easy to push away thoughts from the past as quick as we’d like to. But I can honestly say that it is not impossible! Everything is possible with God and I personally feel that I have once again gotten a new chance at life but this time with Him. I can’t to anything on my own and neither can you.

“BUT SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Matthew 6:33

Are you ready to walk out of that jail cell you’ve been sitting in for way too long? Do it. The gate is wide open, and God is waiting for you with open arms.

Trust God, and Do Good… 😉

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